Funny Gyal

My Fight Against Homophobia in Jamaica

By Angeline Jackson with Susan McClelland. Foreword by Diana King

The inspiring story of Angeline Jackson who stood up to Jamaica’s oppression of queer youth to demand recognition and justice. 

2023 Lambda Literary Finalist - Young Adult

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Dedication

To my LGBTQ and women’s rights activist ancestors both living and deceased, I thank you for your strength and courage. I love you.

To LGBTQ and women’s rights activists active, on hiatus, or retired, thank you. Be kind to yourself. Take the breaks you need. Find com- munities to support you. I love you.

To future LGBTQ and women’s rights activists, I’m sorry this work still needs to continue, but thank you for taking up the charge. Learn about the people who have gone before you. Create communities. I love you.

To LGBTQ and women survivors of violence, I’m sorry. I’m sorry the world can be such a shitty place. I’m sorry you have to be strong. Do what you need to do to create healing in the way that is best for you. I love you.

To my direct ancestors, grandma Pearl, grandma Venice, uncle Anthony, I know you see me. I know you are proud. I know you love me.

Endorsements for Funny Gyal

  • Rev. Jide Rebirth Macaulay, Founder & CEO House Of Rainbow

    "Writing your story is a great step in documenting the heroic journey of life as a proud Jamaican Lesbian. Angeline’s story is unique but yet has the power to break barriers for many who may feel that they don’t have a voice. Living authentically queer under the rubrics of patriarchy, toxic masculinity, misogyny and religious violence is not an easy feat. I am particularly moved by her consistency, resistance and ability to reconcile and claim back her Christian faith regardless of the trauma."

  • Judy Shepard, author of The Meaning of Matthew: My Son's Murder in Laramie

    Angeline's life as an out and proud Jamaican woman is an inspiration to us all. I hope that young people everywhere are able to read this book and discover that they can be their authentic selves. I wish my son Matthew had had the chance to meet Angeline. I'm sure the two of them would have related to each other's struggles and triumphs.

  • Yvonne McCalla Sobers, educator, author, and human rights advocate

    “Angeline’s account is a testimony to what can be achieved with the conviction that obstacles can be overcome, no matter the size and intensity of the odds.”

  • Kasha Jacqueline Nabagesera, Ugandan activist

    “Funny Gyal: My Fight Against Homophobia in Jamaica is a very brave and commendable book. Corrective rape is very rampant in our communities. It's despicable that this is still happening in 2022. We have been raised with strict Christian morals that denigrate us as people and the book brings this out clearly.”

  • Kirkus Reviews

    Readers with similar struggles will find encouragement and comfort in these pages...Searing, tender, and beautifully written.

  • Booklist

    “Human rights and LGBTQ activist Jackson holds nothing back in this raw, inspiring memoir.”

This was one of those books I didn't want to end, because I just wanted to spend more time with the author.  This would be a particularly good book for young people who are struggling with finding acceptance in their families and communities. -Hilary

This was one of those books I didn't want to end, because I just wanted to spend more time with the author. This would be a particularly good book for young people who are struggling with finding acceptance in their families and communities. -Hilary M.

This is the kind of book you read and sit with, letting the words steep in your head. This is the kind of story that teaches, that heals, that reaches out and touches your soul. Angeline’s perseverance in the face of rampant homophobia, her determina

This is the kind of book you read and sit with, letting the words steep in your head. This is the kind of story that teaches, that heals, that reaches out and touches your soul. Angeline’s perseverance in the face of rampant homophobia, her determination to keep her faith, is truly inspiring. -Grey P.

I could not put this book down—the author’s skillful weaving of several key parts of her life are powerful and important to read. It’s rare we get such insights into the developent of a brave and influential activist. -LeeBee

This is an extremely emotional read and I felt so many different ways. Despite some very dark themes and so much pain there was so much spirit and strength throughout. Angeline Jackson is truly inspirational and I really am finding it quite difficult to find the right words as I really am just so emotional. -Evangeline

This is the kind of book you read and sit with, letting the words steep in your head. This is the kind of story that teaches, that heals, that reaches out and touches your soul...I highly recommend everyone should read this book! -greyreads

She always knows what she must do, speak the truth, and speak is clearly, so others hear—the battle for emancipation is never won; she must fight with every breath. -Andrew S.

She always knows what she must do, speak the truth, and speak is clearly, so others hear—the battle for emancipation is never won; she must fight with every breath. -Andrew S.

This was such a powerful and moving read. I was heartbroken by the experiences that Angeline shared in Funny Gyal but also inspired by the way she has used her voice to fight for justice and LGBTQ+ rights. I highly recommend this book!   -Hannah P.

Angeline Jackson returns to the idea that she can be, and is, both a person of faith and a lesbian, and that those two ideas aren’t in competition with one another... FUNNY GYAL is a rich, bold and vulnerable memoir about courage and resilience and finding your people. I loved this book. -Kasey G.

One of the most poignant things is that it is clear how much Angeline loves the country of her birth but feels like she has been rejected by that same country. She cannot be fully who she is and live in safety in the land that she loves. -DReid

I appreciate Jackson's story and the way in which she kept her faith even in the face of denouncement and outright violence in standing in her sexual identity. -2TReads

Very well written. I'm so hurt by the struggles one goes through, at the hands of others, just for living their life on their terms. Why do people think they have a right to tell someone else how to live and love. My heart goes out to all who are tormented by others. -Rhonda

This was such a powerful and moving read. I was heartbroken by the experiences that Angeline shared in Funny Gyal but also inspired by the way she has used her voice to fight for justice and LGBTQ+ rights. I highly recommend this book! -Hannah P.

A book written from the heart, it shows how difficult it can be to live in Jamaica as member of the LGBT community, and how courage can lift you. The beautiful imagery, grittiness and language of Jamaica is present throughout this book. -Jalna B.

I read this book in one sitting because I just couldn’t put it down. It was well written, meaningful, moving, personal and extremely courageous! It’s also a very important story. I highly recommend it. -Joshua Berg

This is a moving, frank and incredibly important memoir about growing up a lesbian in Jamaica...I think its particularly special for the way she centres faith throughout the book, which I don’t often encounter in queer memoirs. -B.

I thought I was living this isolated experience but this really gave a level of context for teenage me. I’m not her anymore but I think the bit of her that’s still in me appreciated this. It’s not a soft read and there are some really graphic bits but I’m glad she shared this memoir. -Carel Reisman

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An Excerpt from Funny Gyal

Early July 2009 

“Ova deh,” I called out to Officer Smith, who was standing off to the side talking on her cell phone. I kept pointing into the clear- ing, hoping to get her attention. “A deh so it happen. Dat a weh it happen.” I was speaking Jamaican Patois.

I stared into the tall guinea grasses where the man with the gun and the beanie cap wearing a bandana with a skull on it over his face had raped Sasha and me. The threatening storm that had hung low and heavy on the day of the assault never came, so the area was exactly as I remembered. Cedar, pimento, macca-fat palm and ackee trees framed the clearing and had stifled our screams; not that many people came into the bush anyway.
I shivered then, remembering the cooing of bald pate pi-geons and the squawking of green parrots. The hand, his hand, that smelled like gasoline and marijuana. The breath, his breath, stale alcohol, and his body odour, like he didn’t bathe. 

My being pushed down onto my knees. My being asked to... 

I pinched my eyes shut and shook my head, forcing the vi- sion to go away. “Mi did hav sum tings: things he stole,” I said to Officer Smith as she moved up beside me, her call having ended. “Mi waan luk.” I started to step into the clearing, but Officer Smith grabbed my arm and pulled me back. 

“Yuh cyah disturb the crime scene,” she said. “Yuh hafi stan’ back and look.”
I wasn’t sure what to make of Officer Smith. The male police officers, who had come on this so-called “re-creation” of the crime, sure made it clear they didn’t approve of me. One short round officer had eyed me up and down with a look on his face as if to say, “yuh sick mi.” 

I peered into the grasses for my phone, wallet, camera, money, and silver ring. I’d bought the ring in Ocho Rios. I wanted that ring back more than any of the other items. It was sterling silver and it had two steel bars across the front. I usual- ly wore it on my index finger, but sometimes I wore it on my thumb, indicating to others in our community my identity: that I am gay. I felt the knot in my stomach tighten thinking of it. I bought the ring after Ana and I broke up for good. My body ached whenever I thought of Ana, because I still loved her. I wanted her back especially now, to hold me and tell me I would be all right. 

It was all going to be all right.